My feelings, secrets, unknown past and forgotten memories.

Doubt...

I really doubt it.. I dunno why... This question has been repeating in my head for a few days now...

Seriously... I think I am too trusting and take situations for grunted...

Sometimes, you may see things this way.. but to others.. they may not see it the way you do.

Hmmmm... could this be it? I am so tired... I can feel the barrier surrounding me again.

God Damn That Hurts!

Knocked onto the leg of the table in my living room... GOD DAMN IT... I hurt my second last toe... my toe cant bend, it swelled and Im limping. BAM... there goes my Waraku @ The Central with dear tonight.

God I wished it was friday today. Limped to work this mornin. Finally stepped in at 10am... answering the same question this morning.. And heckz.. tml's another working day!! urrrghhhhh shuckz....

AHHHHHHHHH WAD an unlucky week... wanted to meet up with Yumm and Fion too this week to go shop and bump around... I hope I can walk properly tomorrow..

Lesson learnt : Never walk too fast / Exert too much force while walking... even if you are at home.

Emo? Friendship Exists?

I dunno how it should be phrased.

Was chattin with one of the TP CLiques on msn last night. Up till date, only yum and her replied to the sms I sent 1000 years ago on the outing. Am I the only one who longs for TP Cliques gathering?

Man... You people have no idea how much I look forward to every outing with you guys. And yet...

Esp the males. Yes I am talking about you LIM PIN and DILIN.

I am getting kinda pissed and irritated with you both. I mean, its only courtesy to at least reply to the msg like a few days after so that I can update the rest with the headcount?

I can't remember how many times this had happened. I understand that everyone is busy. Yes, I may not be working, but I am so busy with school and holiday jobs the whole year round. I am never sitting at home shaking legs during holidays too. So please, be considerate enough. If you are just not interested to hang out, say so. I will not be pestering anyone anymore.

No matter what, time may have passed, the good old memories are still in my heart.

This is really shitty. I can only say, I treasure the friendships, but some of you guys just don't. Fine. I shall not make the same mistake and be a kaypoh to organise outings anymore. Do what you deem fit.

Cant take my eyes off you... MuahHHHZZZzzz!!!!

All are away...

for meeting.. I am currently left with nothing to do. Its really still early from 6pm... Oh gosh...

Anyway goodie news! Theres no need for me to got to work tml! Theres an event going on for the company and wooo HOO!! Im going to the BIG LOREAL WAREHOUSE SALES at The Singapore Expo with Fiona during her lunch hour tml. keke!!!

Need to buy :

1) Eye make up removal for waterproof mascara
2) MASCARA!! (a must have! MANY MANY PLSSS!!)
3) Lip gloss
4) Concealer!! (another must have.. MUSTTT)
5) EYE CARE PRODUCT!!! (I tink i need this soon to get rid of the irritating eyebags, rings and lines)


Ok, fine... those are just what I need primarily... as an impulsive buyer, I may end up with 10 gigantic bagful of merchandise.. LOL... So yummiee, if you need to find last min x'mas gifts, you know where you can get them from.

I miss yummiee.. yum, when are you gg to bring me to a stroll at the park sometime after dinner? lol.. her mum said lives can be prolonged if we take a relaxing stroll after dinner.. hmmm nice! But it somewhat tickled me when I saw that sms. In fact, anything that Yum says tickles me. I dunno why.. lol.. YUMMM KAWAIII!!!!

Its 4.30pm now, 1.5 more hours to go... I wonder what I should do? Hmmmm... Shopping.. shopping spree... shop til I drop... shop and shop... shop til expo drop...

WAD A DAY......

I finally found a holiday job today! It was really a WEIRD and WRONG day...

Headed to Recruit Express tampines at 9.30am.

Filled up my particulars, had a direct interview by one of their staffs, ended at 10.45am.

Asked to head to TnT for a final interview by their HR Executive.

Alighted at Expo, walked to Changi South and tried to find TnT ill 11.10am.

Gave up, walked back to Expo to hail a cabbie.

Reached TnT at 11.45am. Meter -- $7.80 .

Recieved a call from recruit express -- Theres no need for interview anymore, they have just seen your resume, and would like you to start work from tomorrow onwards. Come back to tampines to sign the contract with us.

Apologized to cabbie uncle, asked him to drop me at EXPO again. Meter -- $8.20 .

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Met up at Cityhall after pronouncing that there was nowhere to go. Walked to SUNTEC to look for goodie foodie to satisfy our cravings... Something lame happened. We realised that we needed SALMON SASHIMI badly... detoured and went ahead to take bus 16 and alighted at Somerset. At that point, we were almost dying from hunger and thirst...

Ate all the salmon we could at suki. SATISFYING... haven done this with YUM for such a longgggggggg time...

Walked around to search for working pants... and a jacket! Very nice jacket!! Love it!

Forgot to take picts with her again.. omg.. yummiee said she is the mystery guest of this blog... LOL... I can assure she is not an imaginary or bogus character. I shall take a photo with her the next time and post it here. LOL...

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Dropped by Dear's place at around 7.30pm. Thank goodness he is stayin nearby.. went to get my flat shoes which I had forgotten for a long time, so that I can wear them to work tomorrow.

His enormous stack of washed clothes had piled for 2 days... he hadn't had time to keep them away due to the endless assignments he has. Ended up being his 'maid' lol...

9pm arrived... went downstairs had a quick dinner with dear and uncle. Nice Bak Kut Teh! Uncle was so nice, he wanted to send me home even though he was so tired.. but along came auntie, who had just reached home... LOL in the end, auntie insisted to send me back before eating dinner. Hmmm very warm people the family has. So sweet. =D

Tied up...

i feel like im being tied up and being suffocated. Eventhough its the last day of examination, im spending it at home... wad a nice celebration.

I felt like an idiot. Looking forward to this day, all dressed up and happy. He volunteered to pick me the night before. Called at 12pm and he was still sleeping. Told me there was no celebration in the end. I flared up. He is always like that. I feel like a stupid fool. Always treating our outing like precious gem, yet he can never wake up on time. I am not an alarm clock. I hate to give him morning calls seriously. Its as though I am so hard up for him to go out with me. He always says im important. I cant feel that I am important and assured when I am with him nowadays.

This is a joke. A big fat joke which came 2 years late.

Dreams VS Reality...

You know you are dreaming when you think that

1) everything is certain
2) everything seems happy and blissful
3) everything is clear and defined
4) everything goes the right way
5) every ending is a good ending
6) you see everything you want to see
7) nothing bad or sad can ever happen
8) eternal happiness is taken for granted
9) forever is indeed everlasting
10) nothing can ever go wrong


Many times, reality is always the opposite. Especially when you think that happiness is in your hands, the situation simply becomes the opposite.

Reality is demanding. It makes me tired. Inside out.
Maintaining my dream in reality is 100 million times tougher.

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I hate to be angry and upset.
Every little thing to him mean a great deal to me and the relationship.
Where are his ears?? Why cant he listen more and be less stubbon??
I seriously do not think I won't be disappointed anymore.
I don't want to maintain an impossible dream anymore.
Take things as it goes.