My feelings, secrets, unknown past and forgotten memories.

My Sweet Mummy...

haha... shes so sweet.

My mum bought me an electric eye lash curler! What a surprise!! She hated me to waste time doing my "eyelashes and mascara" thing all the time...

oh well! It made my eyelashes curl like natural!! wow!!

Also, I found this useful webbie for eye make up. Ladies, check it out! click me

Nice Dinner...

I had with the Siglap sisters... I felt like I haven't seen them for ages... the girls looked like they have a good and steady job.. a bunch of stars shinning in the sky...

And then, I reflected on myself. I asked myself this question. In fact, I have been asking myself this question for a while now.

"Rena Tan, just what are you doing now? What do you exactly want in your life??"


Hmmmm... suddenly, from a clear and determined decision made, I fell into an endless pit. I feel lost now. Everyone's working hard to make their dreams come true. What about me? I really like marketing. I love it... but can I do it?

I guess the main reason is that I never ever put in the 100% in what I do. That is why I can't find my potential and see what I can really do in my life and studies. Setting priorities, aiming high, putting in the equivalent effort to make it happen. That is what I should do.

Many of us cannot see the "rust" in us. I know mine. At least one of them, but i have never admitted to them in front of anybody. Its like a dirty, filthy little secret deep inside you. You know you should not be behaving in such a manner yet, unknowingly, you have already adapted to such a behavior.

Mine is such that I find too many excuses for myself when I am faced with a failure. I blame the whole world, but never once pointed a finger at myself. Seriously, who in the world could fail you unless you failed yourself?

ooOOOooo..OOoooOOo...OOooOOookayyyyy...

Ermmm ya.. this is becoming a "once a month" affair... lol...

Well.. was going through some emotional ups and downs again earlier on..

Ahhh Renny became foul tempered, demanding, nonsensical, and totally wrong.

Beats me. I was probably on drugs.. NAHHH... Nothing of those sort. I guess it was PMS. Yes.. very very horrible PMS. And it is getting worse.. I think. Oh wait. Is this somewhat related to my "once a month" entry here? hahaha..

ok crap. Anyway, I guess I'm back to normal now. And I felt really bad for Yong. I feel pretty ashamed of myself. I also feel very guilty for having him to tolerate all that nonsense shit from me EVERY SINGLE MONTH since the day we have been together.. gosh.... SOMEBODY, SLAP ME!!!

Anyway! Angela had learnt to call "zeh zeh"!!!! Cool!! I'm so happy about that.. something new added to her dictionary!

Her total word count = 6.

1. "Pa Pa"
2. "Ma Ma"
3. "Po Po"
4. "Ye Ye"
5. "Zeh Zeh"
6. "Dahhhhhh" (she meant "star" =) )

Great improvement! Can't wait for the day where she can blabber on and on like the way E-Nynn and E-Shane does!

People! Mothers' Day is coming! Any great ideas? I seriously can't think of any.. because my examination will only end on 10th May (which coincidently falls on my mum's birthday as well)... My pocket is going to have a gigantic hole soon...

Frustrated...

sumtimes i find tat toking to ppl who dun understand wad i m tryin to say is painful n irritating.


now i have learnt my lesson. its nt their fault. its mine. i should've kept my mouth shut n not mention anything.