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Thursday, December 07, 2006

A Round Up...

for last month... it wasnt a smooth sailing month... lots of rough patches for school and relationships with friends...

i realised i haben been going out lik a normal person... with frenz i mean... i miss alot of ppl... some i haben been in ctc.. some i am in ctc with but have not met up with..

I feel i have a regretful life.. alot of mistakes in handling stuffs... i feel lik a pathetic fool.. looking back at how i treated sum ppl... I am too frank and hot headed. I always say wad i want and do wat i want without thinking of the consequences.. and when i realised it all, its too late. I will apologise to them one day and clear up the misunderstandings once and for all. lik me n yummieee.

But still, i wish them good. hope they truely lead a happy life.

I dunno... i tink i am imagining things or taking things too hard... there is no one i can trust eversince my course started... i need trustworthy ppl around.. its the same for all.. a kind of security. a kind of feeling so nice... that you know that there is at least someone there in the campus, in the class whom will support u and lend u a shoulder to lean on when things are going bad...

i miss my poly days... those dark days... i could still manage to get through becoz of the bunch of cliques in school... the kind of support and care from them... it was more den enough to get through my darkest days... there was at least an aim... not to let them feel sad with me... i dun wan them to..

Now... i am standing alone. ALL alone in sch... urrrghhhh... the more i tink of it... the more i feel the urge of seeing the cliques.. who are leading their own lives their way...