My feelings, secrets, unknown past and forgotten memories.
Thursday, December 07, 2006
No good... This is no good...
i am starting to wonder if i chose the wrong path... Am i just not suited for this course? Am I gonna be a goner forever??? y cant i do things properly?? y couldnt i juz study hard and get gd grades??? y the hell cant i just get motivated?????????
I FEEL LIK A BIG LOSER... IM A GONER.... THIS SUCKS... I HATE MYSELF.... reali.... i dunno y.... i dun wanna give up... i love this course, im reali interested in it... im willing to giv my best in projects.. but when it cums to written tests and exams.... i get all blank and my hand just cant move.... although preparations were made... i still...... couldnt get it though...... Y Y Y Y Y?????
WAD THE HELL HAPPENED TO MY MOTIVATION????????????????????????
Now i can only put up a thick layer of skin on my face and send in my application for appeal... man... i reali do hate myself. i reali do.
