My feelings, secrets, unknown past and forgotten memories.

One Day, You Shall Understand...

To E-Nynn and E-Shane :

I'm not trying to imply that I am perfect in anyway, nor am I trying to tell you how you should lead your life. I just hope that you girls can grow up to be decent and well-behaved individuals who will be sincerely loved and protected by people around you.

I am absolutely running out of patience with the two of you. Life is not all about obeying and your parents are not lords. It is wrong to show disrespect to others who are around you (family members and friends) or should happen to pass by in your life.

Our love and respect are not measured by the number of gifts you recieved, words heard, or affection shown. It is the inner feelings inside you, telling you subconsciously that he/she really loves and will do their best to protect you in every way. You should do the same for those in return.

What should you do to be well liked and welcomed by all?
What is the true family value one should have and how have you been percieving it?

If you insist on behaving like now, we will all leave you one day. This is not a threat.

Back to Norm...

hmmm... was pretty upset for about a week after the last entry.. but everything is fine now..

exams are finally over, went out with ben n yong @ yuki yaki, indulgence in NARUTO & FF8, went to marc's bday chalet on tue.

The yuki yaki makan session with ah ben and yong really is superb! Had lotsa fun and laughter with those 2. Especially when we "cooked" the ice cream... seriously! i'm reali glad that i found 2 others who eat with a weird taste. haha.. yong shelled the raw prawns and stir fried prawns with chilli... ermmmmm now im wondering if i had held a pair of fishy smelling hands after the meal...

went to marc's chalet on tues. lots of his colleagues.. however, made a fren there. Kaiwen. A very chatty and has a Kawaii character. I dunno y... maybe its been a long time since i talked to someone new and is very unguarded against people. Its a very nice feeling. poor thing, he helped bbq-ing with his formal shirt on (he went there straight after work).

I felt like he was my younger brother when i talked to him. Maybe the prayers for my unborned bro or sis last week at the ceremony created a pretty big impact on me. My mother told me that it could be a boy. I had the same feeling too. Ma told me that this child would be about 19 years old now if he/she were around.

hmmmm i started to wonder how nice it would be if i had a younger brother (a younger sister might result in cat fights, given my character..lol). oh well anyway, hope my unborned brother or sister can go to western paradise soon. he/she will be remembered by his/her sister. And i will pray for him/her. =)

Anyway, i love outings or gatherings with my cliques.. talking to people whom i know i can trust and hang on to. it gives me the comfort and compensated me for all the stress and societal behavior from everyone in school.

ahhhhh wanna meet up with fion soon, yummmieee too!! YUMMMIEEEE I WAN DUAL SALMON SASHIMIIIII!!!!! FEEEEED MEEEEE!!!!

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sometimes i just wished that i could be in a space with no one, nothing and silence. Practically just an empty room with nothing in it except for 4 walls. No one around to disrupt the silence and nothing to distract me from cultivating my inner peace.

I need to have an escape from everything soon.