ENTRIES
PROFILE
TAGBOARD
LINKS
ARCHIVES
My feelings, secrets, unknown past and forgotten memories.
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
it's enough...
urrrghhhh i pray to all buddhas... pls pls pls pls stop stop stop all the dreams at night!! its enough ok??? its just enough... i m so freaking tired.. stop torturing me... im recording this down because i m reali reali sick and tired.. especially last night... im also a light sleeper.. i was kept awake by my grandma's loud snores, and having dreams while im asleep.. im superly exhausted and irritated now with myself...for all i remembered.. i only had 1 dream-less night since young.. i dunno y.. i have dreams EVERY SINGLE NIGHT and throughout the night... the dreams.. many many different dreams just come to me the moment im asleep... be it good or bad dreams.. its reali tiring u know?? i feel so restless and tired every single day.. i keep yawning lik a drug addict. one of the reasons y i cant hang out late at night is bcoz i do not hav enough sleep every night... i have never told anyone about this coz it sounds lik a ridiculous joke.. i can slp 13 hours a day! but i keep having dreams the whole nght!! its to a certain extend tat it affects my daily life.. i cant reali differentiate what had happened in real life and in my dreams.. i mean.. sometimes the dreams i had will be taken as it had reali happened in real life, and i respond and talk in reality as though tat incident had reali taken place before.. and i end up shocked n nervous when ppl tells me "NO"... tats when i realised that tat particular memory or incident took place in one of my many dreams... im reali lucky if i only hav good dreams on certain nights.. what happens to the rest of the nights?? i wake up suddenly like as if my heartbeat is racing and in cold sweat.. thinking about what had happened. is it true? or is it only a dream? sometimes i will just force myself awake to stop the dreams and sit on my bed.. i have to recall what really happened in reality and what is a dream.. so dat i dun get confused with wad i dreamt of... i have tried to relax myself, make myself superly exhausted before sleeping.. a few times i experimented by going out till late at night.. keep myself awake until i m reali reali sleepy.. but i still end up havin dreams... i mean.. im already very exhausted, but i stil have dreams when i sleep!!!!!! can u imagine how BLOODY HELL TIRED I WILL BE IN THE MORNING????????????? HOW FRUSTRATED?????? HOW UNBEARABLE IT IS??? i can reali go crazy thinking about these frustrations.. but i know tat noone can help.. i reali m exhausted.. havin a good dream-less night can only be a wish now.. no. i only wish for a short dream-less 1 hour nap..
Andrea Andy Baby Charlize Elisa Elsie Leong Elsie Lim Fiona Hui Ping Jeanie Nicky Rachel Rayn Seven Stacy Tammy Wee Keat Anime Theme Songs @ Animelody Cupcakes @ Perfect Fairy Birkenstock @ Footshipping Glitter Graphics @ Glitter Graphics Ladies' Accessories @ Divine Ladies' Accessories @ Divadolls Ladies' Outfits @ Kyo Boutique Ladies' Outfits @ WetSeal
September 2004
October 2004
November 2004
December 2004
January 2005
February 2005
March 2005
April 2005
May 2005
June 2005
July 2005
August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
This place... belongs to HER... The one... and only one who holds absolute power to control the sun and moon in this secret diary... SHE is... Empress Renny... |