My feelings, secrets, unknown past and forgotten memories.

Cheered Me Up a lil.. Thanks Dear..

before i write about nice things, i need to write a complaint. AGAIN..lol...

Hmm met up with yong yest.. went to hav dinner.. wanted to hav the nice nice curry @ bedok interchange.. yet to try b4.. but............ ugly and filthy and rude creatures were everywhere.. unfit to be humans... me and yong waited for a seat at the coffee shop.. and when ppl left, we approached the empty table... but some stupid chinatic lookin singaporeans who just arrived at the coffee shop rushed over and shot us the look of "dun fight with me, i saw it first"... i was like................. wadever.. since the table was a five seater.. and they had like 4 persons.. i tried to be nice and told yong that they can have the table since there were only two of us... BUT BUT these ungrateful beasts + babariansss... did not even thank or smile to appreciate... instead, they gave us another look "heh.. its good dat u noe, told u i saw the table first."

How dare they return the grace which i(the Royal Empress Renny) bestowed them in such a filthy manner.... -_-.. lol

.... LOW CLASS!!!! urrrghhhhhh... FILTHY CREATURES!!!

god damn it i was so pissed and told yong "im leaving. i hate the people there. im going sumwhere else."
---------------------------------------------------------------

okok... im going to write abt cheery things now...

after that low class incident, we decided to head to sumwhere else.. for a quiet and peaceful dinner to appease me.. lol...

aiya.. nowhere to go.. so we went to KFC.. lol weird right?? ok we had not much choices in BEDOK anyway.. we chatted.. laughed and ate... its always fun to chat with yong.. we have so much in common!! after dat we also realised that we lik to eat tea eggs.. so i asked him if he had tried eu yan seng's? wow their tea eggs... power!! i still rem that it was ah ger who intro-ed me eu yan seng's tea eggs..

lol.. glad he liked it. funny.. from beginning till now.. we are always eating when we r out.. but its fun. we are always ordering almost the same food coz we r reali thinkin too alike.. hmm hes reali a great guy.. lucki hes arnd to tide me through a rough patch nw.. yeap im reali lucki. hes patient, caring and observant.. but i feel i nv care enough for him.. but its oki la.. anyway im the empress ma. supposed to be treated luxuriously by nature hor? lol

but i can see that he reali wants me to meet his family wo.. i reali want to.. but.. from my past failed r.ship... its no use no matter how well i can click with his family or how well i make my family accept the guy, its no use in d end.. when the end comes, it comes... its so hard to face the world and our family.. and seriously i dun tink im prepared to face yong's family as well.. i feel that they are that kinda strict family.. haiya!!!!!!!!!! how sial... its unfair to him. hmmm mayb i should juz go. once. see how it goes??

Gek Sim...

over my grandpa from my mum's side... haiz... a stone and cancerous tumor blocking the blood vessel for his gut to small intestines... he cant eat, cant drink, cant breathe properly and keeps on vormitting wad he little he had managed to consume... he is totally weak and bed-ridden in ICU now...

its been nearly a week now.. and there isnt any improvements in his condition.. instead, the doctor told us a horrible truth which upset everyone tdy.

the doctor called us up for a meeting.. with my grandpa's immediate family.. i went too... and he announced a heartbreaking news to all of us... on top of all the rough times my grandpa is going through, his kidneys and lungs are also starting to shut down.. because he kept throwing out every bit of wad he had drank. causing his kidneys to dehydrate... and all these happened because of the cancerous tumor and that blockage...

now.. he has no appetite and is not taking any food.. its reali sad to see him.. everytime i leave the hosp.. i feel lik crying.. i wish i can do sumtin for him.. accompany him in ICU as he feels very insecured in that quiet and unfamiliar environment...

My Aunts and Uncles are all very upset and troubled with this matter.. sleepless nights... tears.. even my mum.... shes greatly affected.. i have seen her crying secretly while shes alone or when shes cooking... all the more i should accompany her when shes in the hosp.. be stronger so that i can let her lean on my shoulder and share her burden... we had been tokin about grandpa.. she told me how my grandpa took care of her when she was young.. she said he was a very quiet, but gd father.. never once did he raise his voice at his children.. bath them, fed them and took gd care of them with no complaints his whole life.

Now, we all noe that his days are numbered.. but we reali hope and pray silently in our hearts that he can at least eat and breathe a little more properly... at least leave us silently and peacefully.. with no pain and agony...

that is all we can do for him. Pray.

Currently...

stil at UPS being paid @ $6/hr.. pathetic right?? went straight up to manager and requested for a direct hire since i am pretty steady with my work now.. requested for at least $7/hr. anthing less then that, no more bargain.. will leave after next week. hmm anyway i tink i wun stay if im paid at $7/hr either... too little...

calls after calls made me realise that singaporeans are reali... how should i say.. generally nice.. but some are.... not worth to mention man... bad tempered, impatient, act like a royalty, act smart, assume things, take things for grunted.. lol...

hmmm waiting very anxiously for end of may.. hope i get a place in SIM soon.. so so so desperate to get back to sch life man... last week fion went to wen shi at my temple.. sat beside her cause she was afraid that she cant speak mandarin well.. da shi xiong looked at me and told me i will get in to uni for sure.. lol.. oh well.. i tink SIM could be a place where u can get in as long as u hav the $$$$$$$$??????

seriously.. reali regret for nt doin well in poly.. wth.. my GPA....1.8 onli lehhhhh... such a joke.. i wonder who will hire someone with two fuckin big Fs on the transcript.. coming along with freakin Ds and Cs.... haiz

Gonna work triple-ly hard if i get my desired course. mus biah liaoz. cannot waste my grandpa's money and my own youth. working at UPS... made me realise.. i dun wanna be a small fry afterall.. no say for anything. we cant even feedback about the (obviously poor)management. On top of that, that old man(asst manager in charge of us).. gets on our nerves every single day. he doesnt trust us. keeps walking around to chk out what we r doin. so frustrating...

hmmmmmmmmmmmm another qn. HOW DO I POST VIDEOS HERE?????????????? lol...

i tink my blog entries are be coming more and more disorganised... wad kinda unlinked paragraphs am i writing?!?!?!? i tink i haben been bloggin.. dats y all the thingz cum flashin trough my head in a rojak manner. lol

ciaoz gonna get rdy for workkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk... again.... :(

Belated Pix...

goood memories..... cheers!

yawnzZzz... Another Day for MC...

yea right.. as if i am reali sick... lol.. kinda sick with work there... so i decided to take mc since my days are numbered there.. gonna quit end of this month..

their operations team... are a bunch of irresponsible ppl.. freakin mydin guy simply shoo u away with "wads wrong with u ppl.. stop calling us.. we r so busy u know??".. bastards... and den they juz hung up immediately.. wad kinda rude arse they have.. i was so angry i left from work. giving my manager a stupid excuse to leave urgently of coz..... it was nt the first time they did this.. and its very difficult for cso to tell customers the time for delv if they refuse to co-operate. and probably this is the reason y i decided nt to work today.

anywayz.. was so angry i called yong immediately at 4pm.. kpkb kpkb kpkb bloody kpkb at him... lol.. hes reali patient man.. coz i nagged, cursed and sweared, and blasted the hell out of him for about half an hour non stop.. lol..

but hes reali gd man.. after meetin him when i left i went home as a happy person. no more naggin. lol. suan le. dat fuckin mydin will go to hell one day. and i will b happy to see him being deep fried and crispy. yum yum.

hmmm din eat dinner with yong.. was pretty full from anger.. lucki yest ah gong's food was... alright la.. quite nice.. probably he hasnt been drinking these few days, so he was in the right mood to cook. im serious. u can tell how his mood is from the look of those dishes. so i decided to eat dinner at home instead..

ahhhhhhh counting down to end of my miseries in UPS.... sure hope i get a place in SIM soon... studyin is always 10000000000% better...... den w-o-r-k-i-n-g...