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Monday, February 06, 2006

Cant Stand HIM...

this him could be a hero in most of your hearts... yea right but hes a dumb ass in my heart. someone who can nv put in effort to understand wad the others are thinkin. He will only think wad he does and thinks is correct. nv spared a thought for others. Living under the same roof as him is a total disaster and most unfortunate thing dat can ever happen in my life. Y MUZ MY MA MARRY SUCH A BASTARD????????

He is always thinkin dat hes the smartest and put in most effort for this family. Den y did he ever had an affair with that fat n ugly bitch in the past?? oh ya? he still calls himself the hero of this home. MY mother is the one tolerating everything, and stayin at home now makes me understand wad my ma had been goin thru. RUBBISH. whole loads of freakin hell rubbish from everyone living under this roof.

Grandpa:
SMOKES N SMOKES ALL DAY. i tink he wans us all dead. or he wans all of us to hav lung cancer. Talks lik hes scoldin sumone. Drinks almost everyday. it was such a shame that day when there were relatives at my place and he came back home lik a drunkard.

Grandma:
taken cared of her for the past month, and yet she calls her daughter up almost everyday to complain about me. sayin i made her starve. i didnt. i kept askin her wad she wanted to eat so i can buy the food for her. she answered me that she had no appetite. is it my fault?? WHY DO I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF HIS MOTHER?? HE DIN EVEN SHOWER A LEAST BIT OF CONCERN ON HER!!! wad kind of son and so called father is he???

my so called father:
as per mentioned above. and the only thing he loves is money. the stacks of 4d and toto tickets in the bin every week. makes me discriminate him even more. makes me feel even more disgusted of his behavior. if he loves money that much, i will nv take care of him when hes old. i shall grant him his wish and throw loads n loads of money at him. let him hav his wish fufiled.

Mother:
she is the only one who deserves my utmost respect. n i m very sorry i threw my temper on her yesterday for my fight with my so called father. she tolerates everyone in the family n i wonder how she did it. i wish i can bring her to a world of my own and live with her elsewhere.

Brother:
so far so gd. depends on situation.

seriously i dunno wad my family is all about. i hav put in my share of effort to bring the family together by makin them cum together for celebrations n stuffs. but wad kind of recognition do i get in return??? sumtimes i wish i can juz live a life on my own. i hav nv asked him to spend a cent on me (other den utilities) for the past few years, and i dunno wad the hell he want. it was the first time i talked back to him yesterday. i dunno wad on earth gave me the courage, but i was NOT IN THE WRONG and i deserve my fair bit of justice. he was angry and shocked with my behavior. but i dun care. IM OLD ENOUGH to protect myself from unnecessary and unfair treatments. im not goin to be living with him forever. im nt his bloody slave.

i should hurry up look for a job. i dun wanna bother myself with such a bastard. i nv liked him since young. hes too arrogant and "action" esp when there are ppl around. he keeps tellin us to change to suit the environment. but is he doin that? im sorry hes not. i tink hes tryin to tell me n my bro to change to suit him. yeah right, dumb ass.