My feelings, secrets, unknown past and forgotten memories.

Before leavin house...

7.19pm now... alrighty leavin house to meet up with a fren.. hope she is alright.. shes been feelin rather down lately.. a little worried for her. coz i understand how bad she muz b feelin now.. like my condition when i was in attachment..

brought sum primrose oil for her. gals!! this is gd for you all.. esp when ur emotion like nt stable..

miss an outing with the clicks already.. more outingz plz.. lol... anywayz will call up ah ger too. n elsie(lim) next week. coz b damn eng n can finally pump in time to catch up with them. n this harry guy. hahahhaa paiseh leh this afternoon reali slack at home the whole damn dae.. lol...

New Anime Im Watchin : Prince of Tennis.

Nice, and cool!!!!

Smashed... totally...

sometimes.. in life.. u met those who care and love u.. but.. heaven is fair.. there wil also b ppl who wil hurt u. elsie(lim) girl.. nt sure if im wad u said in sms. "determined"... sumhow or rather.. when i thought i got over it sumhow.. i juz feel very frustrated n unfair.. there are many times when i felt lucky enough to have met guys who were/are damn gd to me.. but i let those ppl down n carry on thinkin about sumone who hurt me so badly.

sway... reali dunno wad happened... til todae.. i stil cant overcome.. esp when his promises to her were exactly wad he had promised me. to think i took them for real n trusted him. i was such a fool. reali. i nv lived in his memory for more den 5 mths after the brk off.. he din even cared abt how i was gettin on as a fren... hahhaha... i was so damn silly. cant trust relationships anymore. all liars. esp him. he loves her. im happy for him dat he finally found her. frm the first time i saw their pic.. i knew. she could be his the one(6th sense). i was merely a passerby in his life. so was he in my life..

right now.. i juz feel kinda betrayed.. but life goes on.. i hav to keep consoling myself dat no matter wad happens.. i muz continue. one day, my the one will come before my eyes and i will noe dat its him. i hav to continue to get on living my life well no matter wad setbacks i wil hav in future. i wan to achieve more in life. there are ppl who r much more unfortunate in this world.. i am so teeny tiny compared to them.

enuff of all these nonsense la.... tok abt sumthin cheery...

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superly impressed wit ah yong. wah sei.. he is the Shin in singapore sial.. sang almost like the cd!! lol... and ben.. very professional.. lol

international buffet... frm before fyp until now.. -_-... eh marcus hurry up arrange n organise. lol..

its kinda weird to noe the guy frenz arnd me are goin army soon.. sianz.. gonna miss their nonsense wor. it seems lik guys arnd me are always in ns, goin to ns or are in ns.. lol... age problem la.. 3 yrs later will b different hope we wil all stil in contact. and go out for ktv like before. love all my frenz.. ah ger, elsie(lim), bao mei lol.. they r the ones who i noe wil stand by my side for sure no matter wad happens. a big thanks to them.. esp ah ger.. one phone call frm me, she noes wad i wil b sharing with her(gd news versus bad news).. lol.. it is true dat ah ger n elsie(lim) have supernatural powers!! lol.. ah ger understands me and could anticipate my feelings and actions.. elsie(lim) can read my brain. LOL... cool... muackZ!!!!

Grand Finale is Over...

he is attached.. finally.. its time for me to move on seriously.. wrapped up myself for the whole of 4 1/2 months after brk off.. i found out.. was heartbroken and my heart sank to the bottom.. its todae den i realised dat... he reali does nt belong to me afterall.. now wad i lack is, the motivation to move on..

i wish him all the best.. but m reali disappointed in him.. n angry with myself for torturing myself for so long. i deserve a new life. a blessed life. a life which i can love myself better over other guys.

Stil.. i feel rather relieved.. after tokin to tp's elsie.. lucki i saw his true colours.. how uncommitted he was in less den a yr.. rather den after a period longer den dat.. well.. time wil heal. in fact i din cry at all. i dun tink i wil. i wun n i shouldnt.

Right now.. i am juz so tired to think of anything else.. after so many months of thinkin.. i finally realised.. wad i need is sumone who wil take gd care of me, can assure me a future and wil nt change his love for me.. not a shallow relationship i had with a shallow guy with a shallow mind. I know this day will come. i still believe it strongly. its juz dat i am unsure of my own feelingz... alot of phobia and doubts...

Ganbatte ba.. tok abt other thingz..

Anime.. Bleach and Peach girl are cool.. chiong-ed anime the whole of last 2 weeks... finished bleach todae n peach girl for the second time. COOLLLLL superb!!! cant wait for the next episode...

work is as per normal.. b-o-r-i-n-g.. tml 'A' is on leave a again.. n i gotta scan in lots of photos.. long day tml.. wish i were back during sch days.. so mani crappy n fun ppl arnd me.. all the ktvs, rubbish... skippin of classes... fyp... so mani mani good old memories.. suddenli i feel so empty and lonely with out my close frenz beside me.. i miss ah ger terribly..

Envelops and MORE Envelops...

they are piling up at my desk now... 3700 to seal!!!!!!! wth!! i am also wasting the glue.. lol.. put super alot to seal it.. heck care la..

cut my fingers again.. urrghhh the edges of the papers are so super sharp lor.. lucki nv bleed.. bu quite painful and irritating though..

went to nynn's house on wed night.. had a meetin wif uncle daniel and webmaster of truehearts. quite alot of time spent on discussin abt their content.. lik lame leh.. they should decide on what content to be displayed before meetin up with us... that wil save time and hassle.. coz me n my bro are juz supposed to execute the work to be done to the webbie...

ehhh.. harry guy.. wad thing i copy u? lol.. go n study hard. next week exam liaoz leh.. u started studying so earli, so i can look forward to seein distinctions or 'A's for all the modules liaoz.. lol... and please huh dun spend time reading my blog la.. oni left few daes.. jia you and focus on ur books hor. lol

i used to study lik one or 2 daes before papers.. actuali nt study leh.. lik look thru and watch tv at the same time.. den end up watchin tv and blah.. lol.. but sch is cool.. not lik now.. reali hate workin life.. no life..

todae will highlight hair liaoz.. do streaks.. if nt reali 'bu xiang yang' sial.. yesterdae went ktv with fiona and meifen.. cool.. shouting all the way.. nw feel abit destressed liaoz.. anywayz todaes a friday.. my favourite day of the week! cool!! one week down, 3 more to go before i leave this auntie-ful place... lol

Headache...

splitting one... urrrghhh dunno y.. after the chat on phone with bao mei.. dun tel me home phone also gt radiation ar.. -_-.. and super bad tummy cramps todae..

been unsuccessful with my vector graphics.. the first time i drew, my mum din even noe its me.. den second try.. she said oni the top half of the face and the hair resembled me.. lol.. now im tryin for the third time.. hopefulli can make it look like rena tan.. lol.. but den huh i tink see my real face better.. nicer. hahahhahahaha...

tink may apply for SIM this july or sept.. dun feel lik workin.. lik hangin in the air wor.. study la.. better life.. enjoy life first la

tian ar.. headache.. anyway.. gt a haircut on sat.. lol.. auntie cut very short.. hmmm like tomboy liaoz. nw ugly girl. wonder wad ppl wil say when dey see me.. dat harry guy sure laff like shit n suan me like mad sial.. lol

hmmmm mother's day... how abt a bikini(triangular ones) for my mama? Cool! lol...