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Wednesday, December 22, 2004

FYP LAB...

oki oki doin the same old stuffs.. surfin net.. reali dunno wad to do.. no ideas.. guess i will go look for codes tonight too.. will be stayin overnight at andy's place this sat. Duno y, juz now tok to him on the phone we were lik so close likdat. quite fun to tok to him. But i think he is very serious with me.. he sounds lik he reali wants to b with me. hmmm... i tink i should giv it a try next time ba.. becoz he is a reali nice person. Except that he is also very closed up. well.. leave it to fate. he is juz too tall and skinny i guess.. haha..

Regarding him.. although i try so hard to salvage the r.ship, but thingz juz seems to get worse. No sincerity frm him at all right frm the day i confronted him. He already said dat he doesnt love me anymore, den juz shut me up by tellin me to get lost. Dun need to say want to patch. No need him to pity me lor. And after break up, dun need to say thingz like he wil b back for me n blah blah blah. Becoz these are juz plain rubbish and trash. He and my feelingz for him are hate, rather den love. i think my one yr had been wasted, totally. He is reali tokin cock lor, say wad he wil b back for me for marriage n blah blah.. den the next day say nth.. wad the hell.. machiam waste my time likdat. i tink his character is reali likdat. i muz have been blind all along. take it dat i am bad mouthing him. but this is exactly how i feel towards him now. Nothing but hatred. he has nothing to do with me frm now.. dun even feel lik seeing his face. Act like as if he is an angel infrnt of others but to me, he behaves lik a devil. DUn understand y so many girls lik him. They muz b blind too. Anywayz. This is the end of the story for me n him. He better wake up his idea and avoid me. COz i will show my true colours too. My patience for him has exceeded limit. From now on i wil not show mercy and b such a nice ger to him anymore. He sux.

Well, life goes on.. no point thinkin abt such a guy who does this kind of thingz to me. I juz asked bao mei to pass all those sickenin letters and that lee hwa necklace back to him. He should read those letters again. Damn mushy. But they are all nothing to me now.. damn er xin lor.. he can burn them and the little note book. I dun ever wan to b reminded of all these thingz again. He is juz a cheat. Even asked me "wad happened to our dreams".. WTH.. say no feelingz liaoz stil ask abt dreams. He should go back to sleep and dream abt his own sweet dream lor.. it was reali damn shiok to shoot him dat night on msn. at least i get to vormit out everything i kept for that whole week. Enough is enough. Not worth doing anything for him. He doesnt even appreciate and gives attitude. sucky attitude lor. He does bad thingz to me stil giv attitude. He is reali too much. Should juz fuck off la.