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Thursday, September 23, 2004

Work..

oh well.. doing data entry.. hmmm... stil undergoing a lil bit of depression though.. i hope i can regain my cheerful mindset soon..
alot of things undone.. haitien's webbie, letters, and burning of cds for master are all undone.. i feel so lethargic..
anyway, sip will come to an end 2 weeks later.. i swear im goin to chill with my frenz and get myself all relaxed and happy. I wun have to worry about anything by then.. i can concentrate on the haitien's ceremonies. That is the only period where i will feel completely relaxed and glad.. i haven't been chanting sutras lately.. *guilt.. wonder if dat is the reason why i feel insecure with everything i do and ppl around me..
tomolo is a fri.. supposed to be my favourite dae of a week.. i hope it or he, rather, doesnt screw up becoz im meetin seanie again -_- .. I dun feel lik seeing him or tokin to him becoz i feel extremely weird doing so. Mayb if i had not agreed to b in a r.ship with him, i would be so much happier now.. being attached this young is reali dreadful.. I am startin to have the feelin that time is passing so slowly with him.. there isnt much topics or conversations to share.. becoz he simply says "dun care about them. dun care about it" whenever i tok to him.. its gettin on my nerves.. if he doesnt care, i wun too. he can do wadever he wans i wun interfere anymore.. i would rather spend my time with myself slackin.. hes juz a waste of my time..
i guess i would juz slog on.. see how it goes.. mayb i shall ask for a breakup when he is ready for that fact.. funny.. i dun feel dat hurt when i said that.. mayb i am reali too tired to commit now..