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Extremely Displeased...

I am so blllooooddddy irritated with my grandma today. In fact, the whole family is pissed with her selfishness and social irresponsibility.

She was down with flu and cough since more than one week ago, she refused to see a doctor and refused to let us bring her to a doctor.

What the heck is wrong with her!! She is acting childish and irresponsible over this. She doesn't have a fever, but she is so weak and feeling feverish. She fell down just half an hour ago, dad was sleeping. What would have happened if I was not in the living room. Rushed over and helped her get up.

She had never been so weak over cough and flu. Her cough is bad lor. Despite of us repeating it over and over again, she refuses to use a separate utensil when she picks food during meals, refuses to cover her mouth when she coughs.

What is she?? My dad was so angry with her that he screamed at her in the end when she told us to leave her alone.

You know what? You people who have never lived with an oldie your whole life is so fortunate ok?

When my grandparents fall sick, the ones who live with them get blamed from those who do not stay with them. For example, my aunts who are married off already.

1) It's not our fault that they are sick for so long, just look at how irresponsible and stubborn they are. And I always catch the bug from them and spreads to my parents. And then, the whole family falls sick. It is already the umpteenth already!!!!

2) We are not wrong to persuade her to see a doctor. We tried our best to get her well. The fact is that she refuses this option strongly. Totally irresponsible and never cares about the rest of us who stayed with her for the past decades. What is she?? What are we to her??? She likes to see us fall sick she said, and she will get well once we all catch the bug. Can you believe it??? What a devil lorrrr!!!! EVIL.

3) Living under the same roof and having such episodes replaying over and over again once every few months is suffocating me. I know it is extremely hard on my Mum cause she is the daughter-in-law. My grandma always think of her as the 'outsider' in her heart. I knew it from long ago. I think my mum doesnt deserve such a treatment. She always get reprimanded indirectly when something happens to the oldies (when they are the ones who behave this way at home).

4) The oldies always do things their way depending on their likes. Hey come on, there are 6 of us in the house. They are not alone. They need to learn to care more about how we think and feel.

Anyway, I am just too pissed and irritated.

Selfish people. Begone.

S-L-A-C-Kin' Good Time...

Finally back to work after three damned days of swelling!! Yahoooo!!

Boss is not around... Renny is slacking...

Will be gg to have dinner with the funny and cool cliques from office later!! New York New York... My yummy yummy ribs pasta!! OMGGGgggGgggg I am so hungry now can? Its only 6pm...

Dear will be meeting up with us tooo... havent told him about the outing yet, anywayz he will surely shake his head and say Piggy Poh is always random as usual. lol...

Tml will be meeting YUM!!! YEAHHHHH MY YUM!!!!!! Finally OK!!!!! Omg omg I am excited... I think I will grow fat until I die... Too much good food.

Saturday will be outing day with SIM Hippies!! Yeah Yeah!! Havent seen Pinky for sooOOOoOOoo LooOooOoOoongggg... Wack wack wack wack!!!

But I must really do housework this week le la... Didn't help out much last week.. So I must complete sweeping, mopping (the house) and scrubbing (my toilet... when will anyone help me with it??? =_= ).

I miss hiking a lot... It is really very fun and enriching.. Told Jas during lunch today that I wanna go with her after my lip heals! Yay!! I am now fearless with my Chapstick SPF30 Lip Balm. WooHOOooO!!!

Why is it not 6.30pm yet??? =_= I wanna go off alr....

Sweet & Sour Pork... My Favourite...

Porky Poh was so sweet... he went to buy the Chapstick SPF30 lip balm and Bonjela cream for me last night and brought over and visited me just now...

But Sour Pork teased me.. He said my swollen upper lip made me look like Daffy Duck... My Mum and I laughed after that.. so mean lehhhh...

Anyway, the SPF30 lip balm came at the right time.. I am going to protect my lips well from now... Never do I want to go through this hellish experience again. It's really depressing and made my self-esteem so low that I nearly cried when I looked into the mirror this morning...

Dear was also very nice to do extra research on cold sore to further understand what I am going through...

So, no kissing for the next 1 week because I don't want to spread it to him. My mum doesn't dare to come near to me when she talks to me leh... so mean lor... But she did it in a jokingly manner lah... I mean I also maintained a distance to my family members when I talk to them.

There is improvement now. The blisters look like they haven sunken down, but the swell is still bad. Yay! Yay! Maybe the medicine did work! The morning could be bad because I was without oral medication the whole of last night. I plan to take the oral medication every 5 hours tonight. Gonna set alarms to get up and take the medicine.

Alrighto!! Dear cheered me up so much!! I feel a lot better now! =D

Bad... really bad... today is only the 2nd day of the cold sore attack!!!! =((((((((

the cold sore today is very bad... this is traced out from the orginal pic i took this morning... I know this is gonna be worse tomorrow lor... The cluster of blisters... urrgrhhhh!!!

the blisters spread out to the skin above my upper left lip... the swell is huge. I mean, I wore shades when I had stye... but how am I going to cover my mouth?? It's so painful that I can't even wear a mask. I can't eat. I can only drink using a straw now...

I am so frustrated and sad lor.. what the hell is wrong with me man... right, swell all you want. Stupid blisters grow and spread all you want. I can't step out of the house because I look like a freako and I can't do anything to reduce the swell. Rach is right. The medicine didn't help at all lor (by the way, the consultation and medicines cost me a good freakin' $70).

What the fuck is wrong with this virus?? The articles said first timers will experience an unimaginable attack from this virus. The spread to my skin is crazy!! What am I gonna do? I can't even talk properly now.. =((((((

NooOooOoOOoOoo!!!!!!

No No No No NO NO nO NOOOooOooo!!!

I have got cold sore!!!!! NooOOooOOoo!!!

I have heard about it from Rachel quite some time ago..

FACTS ABOUT COLD SORE (click on it)

Damn.. woke up this morning feeling "itchy" on my upper left lip... scratched it a little... looked into the mirror and saw some hideous looking tiny tiny 'blisters'!! URGHHHhh... My recent scare on the stye eye made me panicked like mad when I saw those stuffs on my lip.. Chiong-ed down to see a doctor immediately...

I thought that it was just some infection I got from the bad air when I went hiking on Friday and visiting the Zoo on Saturday... Urghhh.. Seriously, the doctor gave me such a bad and disappointing news ok... the blisters spread really fast... Luckily I went to see a doctor immediately...

I am aware that the virus will stay in me forever... and there is no cure for it.. I am being extremely hopeful that the medications can help hasten the treatment of this cold sore outbreak on my lip... WTF man... Renny cannot be more sway than this ba...

Well, I was still in the midst of admiring how wonderfully I had spent my weekend. Hiking and Zoo trip.. Those were better than shopping and slacking... I felt recharged and wonderful after tonnes of walking and lots of sweating...

And now... cold sore... Wah LAOO!!! Turned off lehhhh... Doc told me to get lip balm with high SPF if I want to continue activities under the sun with uber harmful UV Rays so as to prevent cold sore beakouts again... Yea.. going to get them tonight... forgot to get them on my way back from doc coz I was rushing back to take the medi...

Anywayz... I am wondering how I am going to survive at work tomorrow?!?! The Acyclovir cream is white, not transparent leh!!! urrghh!!!! OMGGGGGGG...

Boooo Hoooo HOOOoo.. I can't imagine how it worsens over the next few days... HideouSSSS COmpletely HIDEOUSSSSsss...

Zooo!!! With Baby Charlize!!!

I had so much fun!! yeah!!

Baby Charlize really is playful.. hahaz.. I bet she had more fun playing with us than looking at the animals!

Check this out at Baby Charlize's Blog! =D

Happy Times... last weekend!!

His T-Shirt wrote "Mr Asshole", and he is mine. So, is he My Asshole? LOLX...

Went hiking with Mr Porky Poh last Friday... He took off-in-lieu to spend the day with me! I also kinda took off from office (working temp at Stacy's firm now)...

We decided to 'mini-hike' from Mount Faber, to Henderson's Wave and complete the zig-zagged Forest Walk.

Dear was happy that day. He told me he had fun. So did I. And I am happy because he felt that it was really fun hiking with me. keke.. Well, we did it!! We should do it again soon after my irritating cold sore heals!!

Okay, it was an achievement for me lah... it was nothing new to Dear coz he had done it before with his colleagues already... But it was so fun! My first time on a hike with Dear had laughters all the way.. I played and repeated Fish Leong's 'Qing Ge' over and over again (that almost drove Porky Poink crazy.. but the song is really so nice lah!!), we played 'Human Patapon' along the way, I kept telling super random 'cold jokes', and we made friends with two 'forest lizards' ...

Dear and I realized that I am only terrified of house lizards! I mean, I was kinda excited to see the forest lizards.. they are red, shiny, kinda fat and uber elegant looking... I went very near to the lizard, which I would never do the same if I see a disgusting house lizard, and said hello to it. Dear was laughing and surprised. But I did not dare to touch it of course... I couldn't take the pic coz the cam on my phone is not powerful enough.. but this lizard is commonly seen on forest grounds.

The Henderson Wave Bridge was so nice and cooling!! We took a pretty long rest in one of the shaded areas. By then, I was already lacking the stamina to carry on... even though the sun was scorching, the strong cooling wind and scenery we enjoyed made me feel that all the walking, sweating and persevering were totally worthwhile. =)

After the looong zig-zagged walk down to Alexander, we took a short and AIR CONDITIONED bus ride to VIVO.. Damn.. I have never felt that air-con was such a luxury until that day! I was all red and Dear was chao-tah by the end of the day... we were thankful for being able to live in an environment where air-con is easily available...

I mean, think about those poor children and folks in Africa, or the less privileged... No food, water is scarce, no electricity... We are indeed a bunch of fortunate people who are living in such an environment whereby everything is considered as a luxury to them, and yet sometimes, we take such 'luxuries' for granted with not a single sense of appreciation to what was given to us.

This reminds me of something. There was a mission to help out the Cambodians in office last week. The company intended to send donated stuffs like food and basic necessities over. I was thinking about how bad their conditions were... They would surely need food and useful things rather than cash. Putting myself into their shoes, cash is definitely not something that can give them immediate aids. Unless you are telling me that cash can be eaten, or are you expecting the unfortunate people with limbs blown away due to explosion from hidden land mines to take the cash and risk their lives this time round to buy food outside (are there any vendors around anyway?)?

Haiz.. We should be thankful that we are well and alive. Eating well, having roofs over our heads and complainting about how warm the weather is while turning the air-con on...

End of examinations!!

I feel more tiring than when I was studying for the papers... its like overeating and vormiting it out, and then you overeat more and vormit even more..

Anywayz went to 85 to have dinner with my bro and dear. My bro was nice. He fetched me from school... lolx.. it was quite cool..

Gg to Er Jie's house tml. Yeahz!! Cutie is the only thing that can re-energize Renny totally!!

Remembered 2 weeks ago the adorable little Angela kept calling me Mummy... Lol.. she kept hugging and kissing my cheeks while calling me mummy.. So sweet leh!!! OMG shes like my precious little girlie now.. You know, she has this natural ability to make people adore and sayang her.. keke... Little Megan also came 2 weeks ago.. She is Angela's cousin from my uncle-in-law's side.. She is another princess.. awwww...

I guess children are just sooooo easy to get along.. Little Megan kept sticking to me too that day.. hahaz.. and that was the first time we spoke and played together!! I love children!!! But they are expensive to have in the future!! duhz...

Tried to take their photos bt the girls were just too shy... Awwww.. I must think of a way to make them take cutesy photos the next time round...

Baby E-Dern also came... He is too greedy and 'food-driven'... Hes in his own world!!! He doesn't react to you unless you have something for him to eat!!!! Mama gave him sugar coated preserved ginger to make him stop eating... guess wad... he loved those!! My mama and I hated that stuff coz its spicy and too gingery... Greedy boy.. I don't really adore him like how I adore Angela and Boyboy Baby Mark...

I miss Baby Charlize too!! Haven seen her for so longgg lehhhhh... keke.. I like how she laughs and says "eh!" ... lol... so cute leh her voice!! Just hope she eats more!!! So I can feed her nice nice food next time!!! =D

And Dear owes me a 30mins massage. Wahahaha...

Ultimate Heaty but YUMMY --- Skippy Chocolate Stripe Peanut Butter!!!

This is the most amazing flavor!! But super heaty~!! I just ate this with my wholemeal bread! EXTRA "GAO" SPREAD!! Now I have the "warm" sensation in my throat..

But who cares? Today's finally my last paper.. *cross my fingers, I hope to pass it!!

Had been eating super healthy home cooked food for the past two weeks.. to avoid falling sick again during the examination period.. Dear promised to give me all the fatty and super heaty goodie foodie after 5pm today!! WOOHOOOOO!!!!!! He said hes gonna feed me fat fat again.. but I told him I will TRY MY BEST to control my itchy mouth or my itchy stomach LOL!!!

I was such a klutz... Went to the wrong venue for my PNM paper.. LOL.. so paiseh leh.. I only realized it after a fellow student came to my seat and said I had occupied her seat. Wahaha!!
It was not in the grand hall lor... It was in a room.. pengz.. Luckily I managed to get there on time.

Gan Jiong Renny will always be gan jiong for exams man... shitty. Renny is so superstitious ok.. was telling Yum I avoided Black clothes and Black undies for all papers! I wore white tops for both papers previously. Nothing but white. The safest colour for good luck!! So will it be this way today.

Well final paper at 2pm! Wish me luck.

Take another 5 from revision for final paper!!

Pippin hot!! Amber Guo.. Love this song!! Take 5 again!!

Seriously...

it took the lecturer 20 days to reply my email...

After ranting here last night, I recd an email at 11.51pm, just 9 minutes before Labour Day. Its a little creepy, could the lecturer have been reading this blog faithfully to be aware of my complaints?? LOL...



"

Dear Rena

Good evening. I am not sure if you have downloaded the solutions to the 2 PE papers, so I attach here again.

Also, please goto: www.analyz.biz and in "HIGHER EDUCATION" look for "Management Accounting"

and you may download some Q&A for reference.

Study hard.

Regards

Lim K S

"



Being hopeful, I went to click on the solution guides he attached.. I was disappointed!! Its still the "NO GUARANTEE" solutions!!!! WTF!!!! And it was not even indicated in this reply that the answers are not guaranteed to be correct!!

I found some calculation mistakes from the solutions last night.... @#$%@$%^!!!!!
How can it be called a guide at all?? Some questions were not even answered in the "guide" (what a 'fantabulous' guide right??) !!!

At least he gave me access to look at the Q&A guides which are not in the student portal at all...

Mind you I am only 2 days away from this paper. He replied a little too 'early' isn't it?

Good grief.. drop your intentions if you think you want to study at RMIT.

Back to muggin.

Bloody Pissed with RMIT's...

"SUPER EFFICIENT"
"HIGHLY RESPONSIBLE"
"UBER CONCERNED OVER STUDENTS"

Lecturers... yeah... hell like real

Why in inverted commas? Read on...

Sent the lecturer an email and asked him for help. I basically did the practice exam questions which he advised me to attempt and sent it to him from as early as 10April. No replies, no acknowledgment, no pointers from him, no nothing. God knew if he read the mail.

I kinda expected this to happen because he is quite a rude lecturer. I have seen him speaking with a few students in rude tones. There was one time a student went forward to sign his attendance during break-time and the lecturer actually stared and asked him rudely, "WHAT?!"

And he flashes the whole class's results, ignoring privacy of students and dissemination of the results.

Now, sitting in my student portal,


"
Past Exams
This folder has solutions to the past exams provided in the tutorial materials (no guarantee they are correct).
"


WHAT THE HELL... its like as though he is not helping at all!! What does RMIT mean by no guarantee they are correct???
Could it mean that all answers are wrong?
And so, what is the point of posting it??

I mean, come on, we are just trying to compare and mark our own answers against the model... Shouldn't it be so that MODEL answers are being posted, so that we know what kind of mistakes we made for the practices????

I am so damn bloody pissed with RMIT... its so atrocious lah!!!

On top of that, SIM has got rude and irresponsible internal staffs who NEVER call back when they promised, but are simply fond to bug students at the wrong time for wrong things when they really shouldn't call.

I received a home call from SIM sometime last week. You cannot imagine how rude the staff was..

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Rude Staff: "Hi may I speak with Tan Seow Wee?"
(Did not add my salutation and my name was registered as Rena)

Me: "Yes, speaking. Who is this calling?"

Rude Staff: "Ohhh! You finally picked up the call!! We had been trying to contact you for sooo longgg!! When did you change your mobile number??"
(Did not say who he was or where he was calling from. What the fuck, he was speaking like we were friends since 10 years ago..)

Me: "Excuse me, if you didn't get what I said, I asked who and where are you calling from."

Rude Staff: "Oh I am Bryan(Ryan or whoever), from SIM.. We noticed that you still have not taken a photo for SIM student card (or something). How come you didn't inform us of the change of your mobile phone huh?"

Me: (puzzled)"Okay, I changed my mobile no. since last month using the student portal under student information update. Did your system not capture the information, or did you not check for the latest information before calling me?"

Rude Staff: "Oh.. is it? okay, let me take down your new number now... hang on ah..."

Me: "No, you should get my information from your system. I am 110% sure it was updated. Please check again. Anyway, I will go get the shoot done after exams.. I am in the midst of preparation for my papers."

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VORMIT BLOOD, SUCK MY ARSE... RMIT and SIM should just burn in hell...

Do not be deceived by their extravagant and generous spreads from media advertising... Just a bunch of nonsensical messages... Voted as best private institution, my foot... Is it just my luck or what?